I always thought of myself as being unattractive to
woman as a result of my deformity. I had lost all hope of ever experiencing sex in
the manner it was ment to be and I had to be satisfied with my fantasies of being with a
I was born with congenital limb deficiency (proximal femoral focal deficiency and
bilateral upper hemimelia. I use a wheelchair which I control with my right foot.
My legs are very short (AK) and my feet are severely deformed. I have four
toes on each foot and my left foot is rotated almost backward.
I have never known what it is like to "walk" exept short distances in the
confines of my home wobbling on my feet and keeping balance by swinging my body left to
Earlier this year, our local branch of the bMouth and Fot Painters Association arranged an
outing to the Durban Library where some artwork was on display. (Durban - South
Africa is on the East Coast and has lovely beaches. After our outing to the library
on Saturday morning, we were taken to the beach. The mechanics of getting me on the
beach was quite a sight I supose and my seven companions were all upper limb disabled and
I was the only one with a lower limb deficiency.
While on the beach, a member of the publishing group that accompanied us, came up to me
and asked if she could help me to the water. I have to say that I am very scared of
the sea and I do not have a particular wish to swim where violiant waves will knock me
over. I think she (Debbie) sensed my fear and hesitation and immediately assured me
that she would keep me steady in the water.
I had spoken to Debbie a few times before and I felt I could not dissappoint her by
refusing her gesture so I agreed to go for a "swim". In the water, she
held me in the shallows keeping me steady with both arms.
I actualy enjoyed the experience and after a couple of minutes, she said that she would
like to show me some pictures and if I would like to come to her home that night.
She would fetch me and bring me back to the Balmoral Hotel where we stayed. I
agreed and that evening at 6:30 she picked me up and we drove to her home on the Bluff
(about 5 miles away).
Know I had not expected her to prepare dinner but when we got to her house, she said that
she prepared some dinner. I was prepared for some awkwardness because I eat with my
feet but she had a tuna dish prepared. In any event, to cut a long story short, we
had dinner and chatted about painting, books and music.
At about 10:00 I guess, she said that she wanted to confess something to me which she had
kept a secret throughout her life. After some hesitation, she said in no uncertain
terms that she found me very attractive and in fact that she thought of my disability as
She explained about devotees and wannabees. She took off her shoes and went to fetch
a pair of elbow crutches which she explained made her feel crippled like she always wanted
to be. I must say that she had very beautiful slender feet which were very well
manicured. We started touching one another and I came over my uneasiness because she
had me in a state of erection and touching my penis with her feet and pressing her body
against my feet. Soon I was touching her and we were sucking on one another's toes,
kissing and carresing all over. This was my first real sex experience and has had
many since with Debbie.
We now see each other regularly and we are talking about seeing each other even more
often. She really enjoyes going out with me and she uses her crutches acting
crippled. In the movie theatre she enjoyes touching my feet all the time and she
always wants me to "walk" in front of her.
The moral of my story is that she makes me feel good and if it were not for her special
kind of attraction, I would still only be fantasizing. So, bless all the devotees
and wannabees out there and stop feeling guilty about your feelings toward us cripled
from: Timothy, male, 32, south africa